2009 MOMENTS OF IDLENESS
the moment i started to not express and be active. that's when everything stood still. nothing interests me. i didn't care about anything. friends and family seemed to be out of reach. felt like not needing any connection. maybe i needed to pause. a break.

part of OCDness/bi-polar, self fulfilling soul cleansing, reflecting subconcious mind, deteriorating self motivaton, lack of sense of direction. everything felt like it was falling apart! slipping away. even the meaning of love faded.

2010 WILL BE DIFFERENT
everything is ever changing. every day will be different. getting a job and continue to study, starting new projects, cycling, gobble more information, getting excited again, making new friends, get closer to existing friends, go to events, read more, bake more, knit more, more sharing, writting more letters, gardening, helping more, buy more records, download more movies n music, make crafts, share stories, laugh more,love more, understand more, more get togethers, more bondings, more trips!,and to make them special i'll shall write about them. making each moments special and exciting for me to remember and share with friends to read and get to know bits and parts of me.

OTHERS........
change of attitude and outlook on life and living. fresh perspective encumbers old bad habits. cherishing memories, participating, staying awake, resisting together or in my own small ways, breathing, dressing costumes, goofying around, rehydrate, self healing, go for organics, less snacking more vegies and fruits, less oil more raw food, learn to fix bicycle, stencil for joy, collect articles, photos, art, threads, thrash.

TRADE!
i wonder if we ever trade stuff amongst us these days. lets do it!! i've got loads of stuff laying around that has been collecting dusts. from earings to clothes to weird funny funky ornament.